Letter From my Dad

Ten Random Quotes #3

1. A person that is passionate about their career will be more helpful than an employee who is "just working a job."

2. If you place all of your joy and value in pain, you will have nothing left in peace. 

3. There's a difference between a smartypants and a smartanus.

4. Voice actors and Youtubers are often unsung heroes in mainstream media. 

5. You know you're an adult when you eat food as a medicine for energy, not just because your hungry.

6. I don't have time to kiss Tough Love's behind.

7. Find someone who "hate-loves" your work like MatPat hate-loves Scott Cawthon's.

8. I prefer saying, "Stay Empowered," than saying "Stay Strong," when someone has a hard time, because to me, "stay strong" implies you plainly accept it or to act as if it doesn't phase you,
(which isn't encouraging to me at all), while "stay empowered" implies there is a positive within you pushing the negative away. 

9. If God is Life, and Jesus is Life, and Heaven in Life, and good is Life, why interpret Life as an enemy you have to fight?

10. Some comments are like Gremlins: they will only keep from troubling you if you refrain from feeding them.

Missing my Dad

My dad is gone, and no one cares
everyone has moved on
they continue life as it's always been
I stare at my dad in a jar
my best friend is far
and everyone else
is smiling, as they did
before during and after he got sick
my world was turned upside down
and my friend became my enemy
i wasn't even in his memory
but their lives move on
i get up at the crack of dawn
i no longer have to fix breakfast
to season the eggs just right
when i go to bed at night
and i don't even have to
remind ma about the pills
all i have is a light in a windowsill
but their lives move on
i struggle everyday
to hold on to a faith about to break
and fake and fake and fake
a smile and accept "stay strong"
and he's in a better place,
but in the end he didn't recognize my face
and he called every single other name
except Mine
and i fed and cleaned him and wiped his behind
but he wanted them not me
but they stayed home and rubbed their knees
and now we all run through the stages of grief
again
and again
and again
and again
with no relief
and all my Belief says to me
is you cant have him back
i'm supposed to "move on" and "let go"
but that just doesn't exist for me
is it a punishment for me
is there something i didn't do or see




will i ever be... ?

About Impeachment

    So, "President Trump" is acquitted. He will continue to sit at the White House and do whatever he wants until he and some of his cronies are outed in November. So, what now? What should I type about a moment like this.

    I'm angry, yes, but everyone knew it was going to happen. Yes I admire Mitt Romney's stand, and I could talk about that from an admiring Christian point-of-view. I could shade the GOP and Trump like every other person disagreeing with them online and on TV and generally in the streets. I could comment on Stephen Colbert honest rage at what happened, but I'm not going to do any of that. I do not like repeating what has already been done.

    Instead, I want to do something different. I want to give you, the reader, something to help you hope. I want to give you a list. It's a list of people I want to see succeed and prosper. I want you to read the list, and make your own on your Twitter, Facebook, or where ever you want to have it written. You can put whoever you want on it. Make sure the people on the list, see themselves on it. But, most importantly, make sure you start/end it with this or any equivalent of this: 

"You reap what you sow."  

- Patricia Price

- Christian Cleveland and family

- Darlene Cleveland and family

- Flame 1K and family

- The Democratic Party

- Mitt Romney

- Latinx

- Indigenous Peoples around the World

- The Entire Youtube Community, esp. the Gamers and Animators

- The Entire Voice Acting Community 

- Stephen Colbert

- All the children around the world, esp. those at the border and in war zones

I might do another list later. 

Stop Asking Me To Smile: A Message to Smile-Enforcers

Source: https://me.me/i/you-should-smile-more-me-when-someone-tells-me-this-16219035 

You knew this one was coming after the quiet person one, right? 

    One problem I've had since I was little is the "smiling" problem. You know, the one which apparently, (only because I just found this out recently through Twitter), most women go through, where/when they walk down the street and someone, (usually a man), says, "You need to smile." Yes, I will say/type it: It's ignorant and disrespectful. Here's why:

    Whenever someone says this, the first clear observation is they're making assumptions. They assume the person is "down and out," sad, or depressed. They assume the person is having a bad day. This could not be further from the truth. The actual truth, is "non-smiling" happens because everyone's expression of contentment, or happiness, is not the same. Joy does not have to be shown through a smile. Most "non-smilers" have a more inward expression of happiness.

Take me for example. I consider myself blessed, saved. I have a good life. I'm just not a regular "smiler."  I could be enjoying myself at home, dancing around, without ever curling my lips. Another example is that meme post of Steve Carrell on the computer with a straight face: You can like a silly thing on Facebook or Twitter and not crack a smile. It's all inner joy or laughter. And I bet many people can relate.  

    Now of course I know when you see someone not smiling it is likely that they're in a bad mood. And let's make it clear, yes, it can be a sign of someone having a bad day when they're not smiling. But here's a question I believe none of you ask: Why would you want to make it worse?

What does that mean? The question refers to the rudeness of people telling others to smile.

Nearly 99.9% of all the comments that I should smile has come from people who:

- Weren't smiling themselves,
- Preaching to me about being ungrateful to God,*
- Saying my problems are so small they didn't matter, or,
- Said in a condescending tone.

*(As a Christian who prays and talks to God daily, I'm pretty sure God knows why I'm not smiling and is okay with that, else He would give me an encouraging urge to smile, unlike some of His so-called "children.")

    There have been times I would smile at other people rather than those who try desperately to make me smile. Why is that? Because those "other" people  have shown me sympathy(and empathy). This simply means they understand, and have shown such understanding. My true friends and family don't try to get me to smile all the time.  They understand why sometimes people don't smile. So smile-enforcers, why can't you? You know why you don't smile all the time, apply such knowledge the next time you have the notion to tell someone else to smile. Even if you are the person who smiles all the time and doesn't get how someone could not smile, the least you could do is consider the fact everyone isn't you. Nor should everyone strive to be you and walk your walk.

With all that being said, do you know want to know what really makes me and other non-smilers smile? When someone simply keeps their mouth closed and smiles back, whether the other person smiled or not. That would save a lot of us the unnecessary discomfort in an activity designed out of comfort.

Article Series: Watching Movie (and Book) Classics I Haven't Seen

So, I have a confession to make, there are many classic movies I have not seen, and I would like to write a series of articles about my first honest impressions on the movie. Here's a list of most of the classics I never watched:

1- Citizen Kane
2- Primal Fear
3- Serial Mom
4- Philadelphia
5- A Few Good Men
6- It's a Wonderful Life
7- The Big Lebowski
8- Edward Scissorhands
9- The Shining
10- Chinatown
11- One Flew Out of the Cuckoo's Nest
12- Taxi
13- Misery
14- The Rocky Horror Picture Show
15- Miracle on 34th Street
16 - Sunset Boulevard
17 - Gloria
18 - New Jack City
19 - Boys N The Hood
20- Touch of Evil

There are also book classics I haven't read, such as:
1 - Lord of the Flies
2 - Pride and Prejudice
3-  Their Eyes Were Watching God
4 - Animal Farm
5 - The Catcher in the Rye
6 - Grapes of Wrath
7- Little Women
8- Moby Dick
9 - Wuthering Heights (both movie and book)
10 - A Tale of Two Cities

I will be writing about these soon and I'm open to suggestions!

RANT: Disney is Getting Stupid: Ralph Breaks the Internet and Childhood Sermons

"You're too needy and clingy?" It's like watching that stupid C-bear and Jamal episode where they use the hilariously stupid song "I Got Jamal," to convey the same idea. I'm just getting really tired of these hard lesson movies Disney keeps spewing from the back of its *ss. I mean, I get a movie is supposed to have a message nowadays, at least that's what the industry tells you to do when you go to college for such, but c'mon man! There ways to teach such things without Mickey putting his crack on the camera lens, showing how disgusting "being too close" can be "evil." Honestly Disney, your writers could have used their imagination better than that. It just overall ruined the movie, thus wasting my time. I know many people are going to say, "You're 28, the movie isn't for you in the first place," but do you really think your kids are going to remember this lesson in the future? When they look back, will this be a memorable movie because it taught them not to be "too clingy?" Most likely not. Your kids are going to remember a kinder talk with you rather than an insecurity virus.